Quarantine diary-Freedom
Today is the 12thday of my quarantine, news had come that we might be set free tonight because of the national day holiday. Has the so called “freedom”come so soon?
Hearing this news, I didn’t have too much feeling, since I seem to have been used to a life in a cage. But this cage is very big of course, to be more precise, it is a campus, and a campus ranked the first in “China’s most beautiful campuses”, which, based on my understanding about this Uni and this land, obtained its votes through fraud.
To be quarantined in the campus, I seemed to lose the apparent freedom that I usually had. Let’s call it the freedom level 1.
But after calming myself down, I think I get the good out of the misfortune, which I named: the freedom level 2, a “freedom”of doing many many things I didn’t do before.
As a middle-aged working mom with 2 small kids, isn’t it a luxury to get up at 10 in the morning, lying on the bed reading sth without breakfast till 12, take a shower and then directly have lunch, which is cooked by others and the dished washed by others? Am I back to my teenager time? Since the dean didn’t come either, I didn’t have anyone giving commands. With only 6 hours class for a whole week, I guess I will never have freer days than now.
The campus cafe became my working place, where I almost fall in love with those trees and leaves in the wind, since our class is still online. I eat hamburger and drink cola almost everyday, which I forbid my kids to take and I myself don’t dare to take either. In order to prevent us from rebelling, the Uni even comforted us a card for consuming in the campus supermarket, where there are abundant trash food for you to choose.
While enjoying such fleshly “freedom”, I think there must be another level of freedom, freedom level 3, which is the freedom of the soul and spirit.
That is really something no one could ever grant you, but gained through struggle. I think it is also something that I strive in my life.
If I was obsessed by money, beauty, pride, a man, a woman, or a kid, or whatever, I don’t think I got total freedom.
Which level of freedom are you enjoying now?
