时隔6年第一次单独坐飞机，去程连看三部电影：《Call me by my name》，《Lady Bird》，《The Shape of Water》

本以为自己年老体衰，加上长久未受电影浸染，只消化快餐综艺之流，甚至大于40分钟的真人秀综艺也逐渐索然，不知还能否投入大屏幕文化的怀抱，好好享受一把。

小小座位的小小屏幕，耳机呼啦作响，电影的魅力还是贯穿始终。而这三部影片隐隐都有相似相通之处，连演员都有重复。每看完一部，词穷如我，都只能叹上一句：真好啊。

小伙子Timothee chalamet，父亲法国人，母亲美国人，从小的纽约客，干干瘦瘦一个，追着看了他几个上脱口秀宣传的节目，挺朴实的。这部片子他们拍了6个星期，却全世界宣传了52个星期，是对自己的片子多么没信心。

两个男人的相爱戏，李安也拍过，东方导演骨子里的悲悯情怀，真是纠结死了，当然，断背山已经是2005年的事了。意大利导演就不是，画面美极。我目光随着着电影里男人的短裤游走，影片里的阳光洒着他们，眯缝的双眼，慵懒的对话。想来我老公现在难道不是也每天穿短裤吗？（此处加上尴尬的仰天大笑）

 想想真是后生可畏，本来我对小鲜肉什么的也无甚感觉，觉得一张青春的脸庞嘛，就这部电影来看，青春的肉体嘛。这部戏不一样，每一个动作和眼神我都看得出爱恋，要么演员太厉害，要么就是真爱上了。那些指尖的触碰、鼻头的皱纹、呼吸的频率、睫毛的闪动，我不相信是导演教出来的，只能感叹演员的功力，青春如小tim，只能归功于天赋。

电影里Tim弹钢琴，说意大利语，现实生活法语也是杠杠的，天空略过一个字：才华。

最后父亲的独白，一句也舍不得删除。我能做这样的父母吗？我能对孩子们说上一句：“我羡慕你”吗？

When you least expect it, Nature has cunning ways of finding our weakest spot. Just remember: I am here. Right now you may not want to feel anything. Perhaps you never wished to feel anything. And perhaps it’s not to me that you’ll want to speak about these things. But feel something you obviously did.

You had a beautiful friendship. Maybe more than a friendship. And I envy you. In my place, most parents would hope the whole thing goes away, to pray that their sons land on their feet. But I am not such a parent. In your place, if there is pain, nurse it. And if there is a flame, don’t snuff it out. Don’t be brutal with it. We rip out so much of ourselves to be cured of things faster, that we go bankrupt by the age of thirty and have less to offer each time we start with someone new. But to make yourself feel nothing so as not to feel anything ― what a waste! 

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