《爱情之影——The Shadow of Love》 中英文 李宗轩
爱情之影 The Shadow of Love
一 中文部分
我对爱情其实一无所知。爱情只是我生命中一份无法回避的希冀，一种深深骚动和可以尘封，却时时挂念的本能。可能哪一天被唤醒，却又无法真的忘记。好像我和其他的孩子没有多大区别，在很小的时候就有专属于自己的鬼怪故事。这些闹鬼的故事吓死我了，我渴望长大，渴望拥有自己的权力和尊严，那阳光明媚的殿堂，和一位可心的人儿陪伴，那些鬼怪就匍匐在地，他们成为了我的朋友，也成为了辛勤的园丁和安静的神龛。可心的人儿和我一起注视着这里的景象。凭我的倔强本能，我会在即便天塌下来的时候，保护这里的一切，保护可心的人儿， 宫殿，和那些闹心的神鬼，即便是在狂风巨浪之中。
可心的人儿太美好了，一直美好到，我发现她宛如一条中等程度的蛇，剧毒，华丽温和的皮肤，和柔美。这样我却更加爱她。我知道自己病了。病的真不轻。美丽的蛇出没在我的梦中，摧毁了现实中一切正常的家居摆设。神龛不知在哪里斜挂，我也变得很懒，懒于作为。我不在乎了人们的夸耀和诋毁，愿意陪着那条美丽的有毒的蛇，在深渊和天际游动，在闹市和酒会之中伪装和调侃，我知道我的责任，就是保卫这一切。所以风险才是我真正的安宁。蛇，有毒，冷酷，狡猾，诚实与她无缘。但我的天性却是诚实的，美好的。只有她深处的灵性才折射出她如天籁般的善意。
待人接物之时，人们总夸耀我们。因为他们很有安全感。我却不知这安全感来自哪里？来自那些辛勤的鬼怪？ 来自我所谓的经历的爱情？ 还是来自对一直在毁灭着的人生的一种淡忘。没有美丽的毒蛇，华丽兴奋、温和的， 我们是否要淡忘自己将一直被毁灭着的人生呢？ 我很有安全的感觉，在将倾的悬崖边，保护着很多的东西。这种感觉，在风浪来临的时候，就让我深深地怀念，一条毁灭我的美丽毒蛇，时时在我胸口盘旋。阴冷的风浪里和安静的花丛里，最美的柔情，一定是她给的。她到底是谁？如此咬痛我的手指，滴出的鲜血，让我梦回童年。记得我的妄为曾经让她痛苦万倍，她温柔华美的肌肤让我生如梦幻，一遍一遍华美如烈火的情愫拖拽我在梦幻中流连，一遍一遍的热汤和小火炉让我度过多少美好的年代。经历人们的夸耀，同时人们的诋毁，我怀疑了一切，但相信了那相信的力量。那是你用最微弱的指尖信息带给我的。我知道你是对的，我也就信了。性爱、母爱、仁爱，说不清楚的混合体，历史和希望的结晶，慈悲和严厉的均衡。相信之排山倒海的力量，来自你指尖微弱的信息传递。所以亲爱的你，隐退的时候，一定要记得，在人世间你塑造者了一位英豪。蛇儿虽美丽也总有老去的时候，没有关系，最辉煌的岁月已经打拼过，我会陪着你到风烛残年。李宗轩2017-10-27
第二部分 英文
The Shadow of Love
It is too mysterious for me to know anything about love.Only unavoidable hope in my life is love, like a kind of deep disturbance, and it can be covered with dust, but always miss within the instinct. Maybe someday it may be waken up, but indeed it cannot really be forgotten. It seems that I'm not very different from other children, and I had my own ghost stories when I was quite young. The ghost story scared me, I want to grow up, eager to have my own power and dignity, the sunny hall, and a pretty person who can accompany with me to look those ghosts, which prostrated on the ground, they became my friend, have become some hard gardener and even quiet God shrine. Then someone and I looked at the picture here. With my stubborn instinct, I will be even when the sky is falling, protect everything here,including my pretty.,Palace, and people who suck the palace, and, worrying supernatural,even in the storm.
Because the pretty is too good, up to now, I found her like a moderate poisonous snake, gorgeous, mild skin and soft. And I love her more. I know I'm sick. Disease is not light. Beautiful snakes haunt my dreams, destroying all the normal furnishings in the real world. I do not know where the shrine hanging. I have become very lazy, lazy as. I don't care if people boast and slander to me, willing to accompany the beautiful poisonous snake in the abyss, and the sky swimming, camouflage and ridicule in the downtown area and reception, I know that my responsibility is to defend all of this. So risk is my real peace. Snakes are poisonous, cold, cunning, and not some honest with her. But my nature is honest and good. Only her deep spirituality reflects her angelic kindness.
When we have had the way of getting along with people, people often boasted of us. Because they have a sensation of security from us. But I don't understand where comes from this sensation of security indeed.From the hard ghosts? From my so-called experience of love? Or from a life that has been destroyed?. Without beautiful snakes, gorgeous, excited and gentle, should we forget the life that we will be destroyed all the time? Who is she? So bite my fingers, drop out of the blood, let me dream back of childhood. I have remembered once making her painful thousands of times, her gentle beautiful skin makes me enjoying a dream like myself through my whole life, again gorgeous fiery feelings drag linger in my dreams again and again,and ther, hot soup and small stove let me spend much good time. Through all the people's boasting and slander, I doubted everything, but I believed in the power of that believing. That's what you gave me through the weakest fingertip information. Because I know you're right, and I'll take it too.So my darling, when you retire, please remember, in this world you have shaped a real hero full of wisdom and strength. Although there were senile with my beautiful snake, never mind, the most brilliant years have been working hard, I will accompany you to the decline of life.
Li Congxuan 2017-10-27by Chinese 10-29by English.
