《猜火车》Trainspotting,是唯一一部我主动看第二遍的电影。残酷的青春,也许就是这部片子所要说的。我们所表现出的一切另类个性和格格不入,就是为了标示我们和他们之间的不同。而残酷的青春就是在我们放浪、颓废甚至堕落的青春行将结束时,必须作出一个选择——要么被同化,要么孤独的死去。
人生也许就是一个选择的过程。有人选择平庸,有人拒绝选择平庸,有人选择世俗,有人拒绝选择世俗,而不管你如何选择,最终留下来的都会回归生活本身。
下面是电影最吸引我的开头和结尾的独白:
开头独白:
Choose life.Choose a job.Choose a career.Choose a family.Choose a fucking big television.Choose washing machines,cars,compact-disc players,and electrical tin openers.Choose good health,low cholesterol,and dental insurance.Choose fixed-interest mortgage repayments.Choose a starter home.Choose your friends.Choose leisurewear and matching luggage.Choose a three-piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics.Choose D.I.Y. and wondering who you are on a Sunday morning.Choose sitting,watching mind-numbing,spirit-crushing game shows,stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth.Choose rotting away at the end of it,pissing your last in a miserable home.An embarrassment to the selfish,fucked-up brats that you've spawned to replace yourself.Choose your future.Choose life.But why would I want to do a thing like that? I chose not to choose life.I chose something else.And the reasons?There are no reasons.Who needs reasons when you've got heroin?
选择生活,选择工作,选择事业,选择家庭,选他妈的大电视机,选洗衣机,汽车,CD播放机,电动开罐器,选择健康,低胆固醇,牙医保险,选择低利息贷款,选择房子,选择朋友,选择休闲服和搭配的行李箱,选择分期付款,三件式的西装,用他妈一系列的布料,选DIY,星期天早上还怀疑自己干啥,选择坐着,看着令头脑麻木,让心灵破碎的猜谜节目,嘴里塞满他妈的垃圾食物,最后整个人腐烂到底,在悲惨的家里生一堆自私的混蛋小孩,烦死自己,不过是难堪罢了,选择你的未来,选择生活,但我干嘛要做这样的事?我选择不选择人生,我选别的,理由呢?没有理由,有维C柠檬茶,还需要什么理由?
结尾独白:
So why did I do it?I could offer a million answers,all false.The truth is that I'm a bad person,but that's gonna change.I'm going to change.This is the last of that sort of thing.I'm cleaning up and I'm moving on.Going straight and choosing life.I'm looking forward to it already.I'm going to be just like you.The job,the family,the fucking big television,the washing machine,the car,the compact disc,and electrical tin opener,good health,low cholesterol,dental insurance,mortgage,starter home,leisurewear,luggage,three-piece suite,D.I.Y.,game shows,junk food,children,walks in the park,9:00 to 5:00,good at golf,washing the car,choice of sweaters,family Christmas,indexed pension,tax exemption,clearing gutters,getting by,looking ahead to the day you die.
我为什么那么做?有一百万个答案,但全是错的,原因是我根本就是个坏胚子,但那会改变,我要改变,这是最后一件坏事,我要洗心革面,向前走,选择人生,我已经在期望了。我会跟你一样,工作,家庭,大电视机,洗衣机,汽车,CD播放机,电动开罐器,健康,低胆固醇,牙医保险,贷款,购屋,休闲服,行李箱,三件式的西装,DIY,猜谜节目,垃圾食物,孩子,公园散步,朝九晚五,高尔夫球,洗车,运动衫,阖家过耶诞,养老金,免税,清水沟,只往前看,直到你死掉那天为止。