回想起我们之间的开始和延续，好像是一条自我的觉醒之路。心动来得猝不及防，害怕、犹疑，疑惑，怎么会？怎么可能？
来不及思考，冥冥之中，有一种力量，吸引我想要靠近。这种力量超出了我可以控制的范围，我感到TA也被这种力量带领着，情不自禁地想要靠近我。
我对TA从一开始就莫名地信任，是因为TA所说的，所想的，全是曾经的我说过的，想过的。TA所做的事情，恰好是我曾经做过的，让我心灵深处欣喜的事情。这就是为什么我们想要靠近彼此的真正原因。也许我们分属于不同的肉身，但我们的灵魂比我们的意识先知道，我们是同属于一个灵魂的两个分支。而我们关系的每一次变化，对彼此更深入地了解，都能带我成长。就像我偶然遇见陈果的书那样，她所有的洞见都让我欣喜万分，好像在这个诺大的漆黑的世界里，看到了那盏闪烁的烛光，照见彼此的心，遇见相同的灵魂的孩子。
我们的对话从一开始就没有围绕那些身外物的话题，一开始，就轻易地走进对方的心里。很像两个灵魂的孩子相遇，互相开心地邀请对方到家里做客。感觉引领着我们，越走越深。
我的感觉越来越敏锐，而我对自己的各种感觉越来越开放，竟让自己推开了另一扇世界的大门。我的精神之光被点亮，整个存在发生了一次翻天覆地的震荡。
当我跟着自己的感觉，接受它的指引，我看见了自己。
那个什么也不做，什么也不想，完全在大自然中，开心虚度时光的自己；
那个愿意看见他人，想让自己微弱的烛光，帮助他人照亮心灵黑暗的自己；
那个思路清晰，看到事务本质，聪明睿智，自信地在外部世界，认真工作的自己；
那个忠于自己的感觉，忠于自己的心，知道自己是谁，知道自己要去哪里的自己；
那个越来越了解自己的喜怒哀乐，越来越会陪着自己微笑，陪着自己穿越黑暗，迎接光的自己。
我知道我正在变成一个无法被掌控的女人，变成一个神秘魅惑，风情万种的女人。因为我只忠于自己的心，我的心把我带到哪里，我就去哪里。我不祈求命运赐予我幸运。命运的高低，无所谓。命运，随便你带我到哪里，我就在哪里安家，在每一天接受心的指引，做我喜欢的自己。如果我一个人，那就自由自在地做自己喜欢的事情。如果我有个知己好友，我就敞开最真的自己，和TA舒服地聊聊。其实无法被掌控的，不是我，而是心。神秘魅惑的也不是我，而是心。它吸引着我去探索，去发现，每一天它都给我惊喜和感动。而风情万种，只因为心千变万化，魅力无穷。
原来人与人之间，感觉才是那把钥匙。寻着感觉，你才会看见真正的自己和他人。
我说的话，不是从意识里出来，而是从感觉里出来。那是我的灵魂在邀请你跳一支舞，就像黑暗中恋人的呢喃，灵魂在最深处亲密。
Thinking back to the beginning and continuation between us , it seems like a way of self-awakening . The heart beat is caught off guard. Fear , hesitation , doubt . How come ? How can it be ?
There is no enough time to think. There is a kind of power in the midst of it that attracts me to want to get closer. This kind of power is beyond my control. I feel that TA is also led by this kind of power and can't help but want to get close to me.
I trust TA inexplicably from the beginning, because what TA said and thought were all what I said and thought about previously. What TA did happen to be what I had done before, something that made me happy in the depths of my heart. This is the real reason why we want to be close to each other. Maybe we belong to different bodies, but our soul knows before our consciousness that we are two branches of the same soul. Just like when I met Guo Chen’s book by chance, all her insights made me very happy, as if I saw the twinkling candlelight in this dark world , illuminating each other’s hearts, and meeting the child of same soul .
From the beginning of our conversation, there was no topic surrounding those external objects, and from the beginning, it easily entered the heart of the other party. It's like two soul children meeting, happily and inviting each other to be a guest at home. Feeling leads us to go to each other’s heart deeper and deeper.
My feelings are getting more and more acute, and I am more and more open to my various feelings . Then I actually let myself open the door of another world. The light of my spirit was lit, and the whole existence was shaken up and down.
When I followed my feelings and accepted its guidance, I saw myself.
The one who doesn't do anything, doesn't think about anything, is completely in nature and spends time happily;
The one who is willing to see others and wants to let her faint candlelight help others to illuminate the darkness of their souls;
The one who has clear thinking, sees the essence of the business, is smart and wise, working in the external world confidently and seriously ;
The one who is loyal to her own feeling, loyal to her heart, knows who she is, and knows where she is going;
The one who understands hers own happiness, anger, sorrow, and joy , will accompany herself to smile, accompany herself through the darkness, and meet the light.
I know that I am becoming a lady who cannot be controlled, a mysterious, charming lady. Because I am only loyal to my heart, wherever my heart takes me, I will go. I do not pray that fate will give me luck. The level of fate does not matter. Destiny, wherever you take me, I will make my home wherever I am, accept the guidance of my heart every day, and be who I like. If I am alone, I am free to do what I like. If I have a confidant, I will open up my truest self and talk comfortably with her/him. In fact, it is not me who cannot be controlled, but the heart. The mysterious charm is not me, but the heart. It attracts me to explore and discover, and it surprises and touches me every day. And there are many styles, just because the heart is ever-changing, and the charm is endless.
It turns out that between people, feeling is the key. Following the feeling, you will see the true self and others.
What I say does not come out of consciousness, but comes out of feeling. That is my soul inviting you to dance with me, just like the whisper of a lover in the dark. Our souls are intimate in the deepest part.
