Stone is getting well. He ate 5 eggs in total. He is robust as we expect. Now I'm worrying about myself. I'm too nervous to sleep. Like today, I woke up at 4:30 and could not fall into sleep again. I'm afraid that if I kept loosing sleep, my health status would become poor. I should adjust it to a comfortable level.
I took a trial on line lesson with a foreign teacher who comes from Kazakhstan yesterday morning. One of my apprentice introduced her to me. She said she was familiar with IELTS but had never taught TOEFL before, so when we talked about tuition fee, she agreed to reduce it to 250 yuan one hour, which was 50 yuan les than she expected. Although she is not a English native speaker, she is a professional English teacher. And as she could not speak Chinese fluently, English will be the only language during our class. That's enough for me, because I suppose to find someone practice oral English with me. Despite, she said she would devise particular speaking lesson aiming to improve my score in that session of TOEFL. I'm sure her lessons will be helpful. She suggested me to have lessons twice a week with her. I agreed at first but regretted shortly afterwards. 2000 yuan a month is too expensive for me. I could not afford that. And I still can't resolve to cut off my Japanese class completely. One Japanese on line class on Friday afternoon, and one English on line class on Monday morning.
Donkey said he wanted to work at home therefore he would have a chance to take a nap at noon. So I went back to ma parents house. Dad restored to health but Mom was sick. She suffered from serious toothache. I am frustrated. If they keep unhealthy like this, it is impossible for me to study abroad. I should stay with them whenever they need me. When I think about this, I feel relieved instead. There is less pressure for me to reach my goal. Because even if I am admitted by my dream school, there are yet loads of reasons that I could not attend. Like the pandemic, my parents' health and political reason. But all these could not controlled by my, the only thing I could do is to prepare as much as I can.
This afternoon, I carefully read the J-school's website of UCB word by word in order to know what I should prepare for the application. I think I'm very likely to be admitted by it because I'm fully qualified with every prerequisite. Despite, I possess strong desire and I'm very eager to express myself. The only thing left for me to do is to fulfill the applications. I will not give up no matter how furiously the pandemic goes on. I could reject the offer because of the reasons mentioned above, yet I need a result.
Doing some research about my application makes me feel relaxed and helps me restore to confidence. I enjoy going back to my parents' house alone. They usually cook for me and I could do anything without interruption. My parents helped very little about rearing their grandson though they wish they could. As a result, they are more willing to give me a hand whenever I need in other fields which they could manage like today.
