Maybe all of my passive emotions come from my insecurity . Yeah difinitely
I am always interested in people, I would love to make friends with new strangers , as long as he/she is not ugly.(I can't tolerate ugly things) But the truth is that I never trust in anyone of them. Today I seriously consider it , suddenly I understood .
It's kinda after-effect of my childhood. Because I have a elder sister and a little brother, I kinda so-called superfluous person, I was sent to relatives' family because of China's one-child policy, maybe that's why I am so insecure all the time.
I cannot trust in men, so gradually I lost interest in men, I have problem in trusting them, whenever I meet someone I really like, I cannot last the feeling for a long time , on the one hand I am not confident in myself , on the other , as I said before , I cannot trust in men. So it quite troubles me recently , I think I cannot find someone to live with for the rest of my life, Terrible aha !
This kind of insecurity affect my whole life, how can I get rid of it?☹️